Wendy UnBrOkEn

Without the Dark, We'd Never See the Stars...

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

New photos to show weight loss. 12-23-2012

Julie Smith and I at Shooters (a local bar)

Me before going to Shooters
Every time I lose weight, my cheek bones stick out like they are in the photo.  I think it looks odd.  

Full body shot.  I am down to 229 pounds now!  At surgery in July 2012 I was 253.  

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Life is good!!

It's finally December 1st!  I love winter!  I love the cold crisp air, the cold nights and the smell of fireplaces burning aged logs.  I love sweaters and jackets and jeans.  But, my favorite thing is cuddling up under a blanket.  I am addicted to blankets and collect them.  I don't collect them on purpose, really, I just seem to acquire a lot of them. I always feel my best in winter.  Winter in Texas is too short and the summers too long.  I need to be up north somewhere!

I am still not losing weight.  I don't know what the deal is.  I eat, but not very much.  That is probably why I stay the same.  My body probably feels like I am starving.  I just cannot eat very much and I am never hungry.  What I do manage to eat is always a very small portion and I usually get "stuck".  If I get stuck I have to throw it back up.  Getting stuck is the most painful feeling.  I've never had a heart attack, but I can imagine it is a pain somewhat like that.  Deep chest pain, radiates to my jaw and arms and middle back.  Nothing helps except to throw up.  So, my body is probably holding onto the fat, just in case.  I am sure that at some point I will lose weight...even anorexics lose weight and they don't eat anything. I am losing inches, though.  My jeans are bigger.  I don't understand how that works.  No matter how many times I research it, it makes no sense to me to get smaller, yet weigh the same.  I am  not really working out, either.  So, someone explain this to me!

Work in the ER has been very good.  I sure do enjoy my job here and my co workers!  I couldn't ask for better people to spend my weekends with.  I have to work on Christmas, though.  That kind of sucks, but that is just the type of job I have.  The sick and injured don't stop being sick and injured just because it's a holiday.  My work family will probably throw together a pot luck lunch and we will celebrate the day together.  

Hope everyone has a great December!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Twilight * cpap * lap band * Christmas

It's been a while since I have blogged, and I am sorry for that.  Life has been busy and active lately.  

I went to the Breaking Dawn 2 opening night Thursday 11/15/12.  WOW!  Just WOW.  That is all I can really say.  It was by far the best Twilight Saga movie, and the last.  *Cry*  I went with some friends and we all dressed up in our Twilight shirts and sprayed glitter on ourselves.  I am a nerd. I know. Breaking Dawn 2 trailer 

Lap band is still going well.  Still unable to eat a lot, which is good.  But, I am really not losing weight as quickly as I would like.  I am currently at a stand still.  I am just impatient and want to be thin NOW.  I am down to 233.  Started at 253, I think, day of surgery (July 17th).  

I had to change cpap masks again.  I could not get the other mask to seal off and stop leaking.  This new one is so much better and seals off well.  I am able to sleep through the night, finally.  I still do not like that I have to wear the mask every night, but I guess that is better than dying in my sleep.  
The new mask is a mirage quattro.  It fits my face better and feels light.  

Thanksgiving is next week.  My kids and I are going with Pat to his moms house.  It will be the first real holiday we spend together.  I will not be able to eat a lot, but I am going to try.  I have to save room for the desserts, though.  Hey, it's Thanksgiving...I am going to splurge a little.  I am only human, after all.  Who can turn down pumpkin pie?  Not this lady!!

 Does anyone else think it is just too soon for Christmas lights on houses and trees up in stores?  My favorite radio station 93.3 switched to 100% Christmas music last week!! Now I am listening to 95.9 and it is great!  It isn't even Thanksgiving yet!  I am sick of Christmas already.  I am ready for it to be OVER.  I am off Christmas Eve (which is when I celebrate) but, I have to work Christmas day...so it will just be another day for me. I am sure the ER will have a pot luck lunch, though.  I need to figure out what I am going to bring.  

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Hodge Podge

“Falling in love is very real, but I used to shake my head when people talked about soul mates, poor deluded individuals grasping at some supernatural ideal not intended for mortals but sounded pretty in a poetry book. Then, we met, and everything changed, the cynic has become the converted, the skeptic  an ardent zealot.” 
― E.A. BucchianeriBrushstrokes of a Gadfly


I want this Shakespeare quote tattooed on me. 

"These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume."


So, I am having trouble eating again.  Food that gets stuck one day, goes down fine the next.  I don't know what to do about it.  I have tried drinking hot coffee before eating to loosen up the band, but it doesn't seem to help at all.  

I had a pork chop one night, and it was fine, then the next day I tried to eat another one and it got stuck and I hurt so badly I had to throw up.  

I went to my friend Regina's baby shower and ate like a pig.  Nothing got stuck!  I ate BBQ wienies and cheese and a huge cup cake!!  I even went back for seconds and still had no issues.  I don't understand why some times I can eat and some times I can't.


Impatience [ɪmˈpeɪʃəns]
1. lack of patience; intolerance of or irritability with anything that impedes or delays
2. restless desire for change and excitement

This is SO me.  I have no idea how to stop being so impatient!  Help me before I go insane LOL

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Rant * Vegas * Song I like

The time is just not passing fast enough for my taste.  I'm at work and time is at a damn stand still. I just want to get out of here and go do other things.  The ER was relatively quiet all morning, then all hell broke loose.  I swear I ran my ass off in an hour chasing 6 ambulances! So now I am in the monitor room and I am just restless.  I feel like I need to go outside and run a mile.  

I have a new book I want to read from tonight.  It is like a "get to know you" book of questions.  I don't know if he enjoys reading all the questions as much as I do, but I find that I learn a lot about him when we play question and answer games.   

Did you know that you can go to Las Vegas  for under $1,000 for two people...and that is a round trip flight and a popular hotel on the strip for three nights?! There are a lot of things to do there that are free, too!  Just walking the strip and sight seeing would be awesome.  I have friends in Vegas I could go visit, also!  I bet Vegas is an experience!  I want to go SOOOO bad!!!! I'd want to go to at least one show, and one bar!  I could really people watch there!  

COME ON TIME... FINALLY IT'S 4PM.  Come on 6:45!!!!  
I am so over this ER today!!  I am so over working weekends.


I love this song:  Cyclone by  Baby Bash featuring T-Pain

Friday, October 26, 2012

Lap Band Fill * Bills * Pat

Tuesday, October 23rd, I got another lap band fill.  Just 1/2 a cc.  I think I have 3 1/2 cc now. I get excited about the needle.  I guess I am weird.  I crave tattoos, also.  
That  1/2 cc was enough, though, to make all the difference.  I can now tell that I have restriction.  I cannot eat very much, but I can drink plenty.  I should start seeing the weight come off faster now.  I've already lost 20 pounds since surgery in July. I've gone down a jeans size!  Boobs are still the same size.  I wish they would shrink, too.  But, they never do.  


I hate bills.  I hate them.  I know that is part of being an adult and all, but damn.  My car insurance that I pay quarterly is 377 bucks!!  That seems ridiculous to me. All I have is a 2008 Ford Escape and a 2000 Ford Taurus. It's not like I am driving around in a damn Corvette.  I have Ark Farm Bureau insurance, in case you were wondering.  

My paycheck was short this time...they didn't pay me for the days I was in Hot Springs like they were supposed to.  At least I have child support to fall back on. Well, at least I hope it comes.  I never know.  I need to win the lotto so I don't have to worry about things like this anymore.  Guess I should play the lotto to have a chance though ha ha


Pat and I are doing great!  He's still a sweetheart.  If I am going to have a guy in my life,  I couldn't ask for a better one.  He is so funny, and we laugh all the time.  Humor is very important to me.  We talk and joke around and he is nice and we seem to have a mutual respect for one another.  

We went shopping the other day and he picked out a new bedding set.  A very pretty blue comforter set.  I think he has decided to go with a boating theme in his room since he is into boats.  

He also picked out a few things for his living room to decorate the walls.  {Let it be known that I didn't MAKE him buy this stuff nor did I suggest it, it was  his idea and he wanted this stuff!}

He has his son this weekend.  Cute kid.  Polite and talkative.  
I'm working, like always, so they are on their own to do lots of boy stuff.  Have fun guys!


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Weighed in

I weighed in this morning... 233 pounds baby!!!!  I am so proud of myself!!!  Went down a size in jeans, too!!!   Hell YEAH!

I am so sleepy right now, writing this blog is making me tear up.  I am working night shift in the ER.  I didn't get enough sleep.  I cannot wait to just go home, sit under a hot shower, and then go to bed.


Saturday, September 29, 2012

2nd Fill Monday Sept 24th (Lap Band)

I was so excited to get another fill in my band Monday,  I arrived at the doctor office 30 minutes early!  Checked in and filled out my worksheet on my eating habits and waited... 

After being called back, Dr. Keilin came in right away.  She was quick, poking that needle right in and giving me 2 more cc's of fluid.  At this point I had 4 cc's total in a 10 cc band.  She gave me a cup of water to drink and I drank it and I went home.

Two hours later:
...Can't drink anything, can't eat anything, can't even take a deep breath! The band was too tight. I coughed all night for two nights (this is a symptom of the band being too tight), vomited up what little water I was able to drink and had a feeling in my gut like there was a vice grip on my stomach.  I didn't want to race back up to the office, so I toughed it out...for 2 1/2 DAYS!!!  I was starting to get a headache and a dry mouth.  I knew I was dehydrating fast.  I finally called the office and told them what was going on.  They told me to come in at 3 pm to get unfilled. They had to call in a nurse to do it because the doctors were out of town.  When I got there, they rushed me right to the back and weighed me.  I had lost 6 pounds of water weight from not being able to drink for 2 and a half days.  WOW!  The nurse removed 1 cc of fluid and that made all the difference in the world!  I was able to drink!!!  ...I drank a lot that day; water never tasted so good.  I had to re-hydrate! Now, I have 3 cc's in a 10 cc band and I seem to be doing great now.  With the band, it is just trial and error.  You add liquid for restriction, and take it back out if it is too restrictive until you reach your "sweet spot". 

Sunday, September 23, 2012


I haven't lost anymore weight, so there will be no pictures this month.  Sorry to everyone that looks forward to them. 

 I get another fill in my band Monday Sept. 24 at 10:40am.  Maybe that will help.  I was told by my sleep specialist that I am not losing weight because of my mixed (or complex) sleep apnea disorder and chronic fatigue syndrome.  When I finally get that under control and have enough fluid in the band I will start to loose weight.  

My sleep disorder is just so profound, plus I also have  chronic fatigue syndrome . I am just a wreck.  I am sure it will take a while to regulate my sleep schedule.  I still feel very weak and sleepy at all times.  I really hate this.  It ruins everything in my life.  Everything I do is such an effort for me.  I have to work three times as hard as everyone else to do the most basic things.  There are CFS medications my doctor will try me on if I continue to be weak and sick.  


My friends Ashley and Lori and I went to the Four States Fair and Rodeo last night.  The hospital that I work for does an annual employee appreciation day.  This year they held it at the fair.  I was able to get in for free and take up to three guests for free. We also were able to eat for free and ride the rides for free. I love Christus St. Michael!! 

The three of us had the best time out there last night.  We ate some BBQ, funnel cakes and lemonade.  Ashley and Lori talked me into riding some rides.  I never ride rides.  I am a chicken shit and I feel that fair rides are very unsafe.  Ashley said I needed to live a little and come out of my shell.  So, I rode a few with her.  It ended up being quite fun and exciting and I survived it.  I do feel like I have been run over by a truck this morning, though.  I had a death grip on all of the rides, so I am sure my muscles are sore because of that.  I am sleepy, cold,  nauseous  and super fatigued, too.  I just want to go back to bed.  The fair wore my ass out!! When I get off work tonight I plan to just crash into my bed and not move for 9 hours.  

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

* CPAP * Sleep Apnea *

I wasn't going to blog about this, but I think I need to just in case there is ever someone reading this blog who may not know they are suffering with sleep apnea. Sleep apnea usually cannot be cured, but it can be managed with a machine called a CPAP (continuous positive air pressure).  I know I have mentioned my sleep issues before, but now I have finally been given a device to help me achieve the re-cooperative sleep I need in order to lead a fulfilling and productive life.  My risk for stroke and heart disease is greatly reduced, as is my risk to die in my sleep from cardiac arrest.  Yes, sleep apnea is very serious and can be deadly.  

Since getting my machine a week ago, I have already had to exchange my mask for a new one because I hated the one they gave me to start out with.  Why they thought I would like a nasal mask is beyond me.  Talk about uncomfortable! It is a small mask that fits just over your nose area.  If you are a nose only breather and never open your mouth when you breath then that mask would probably be just fine for you.  If you do open your mouth at night for any reason, even to speak, the air comes down and around your nasal cavity and shoots very forcefully out of your mouth! It also makes a loud hissing sound.  It reminded me of what I would think a fire breathing dragon would sound like!  My kids thought it was quite hilarious that air shot out of my mouth, so much so that my daughter even tried the mask on herself and pretended to be a dragon. 

Today I took the nasal mask back to the store and exchanged it for a full mask.  It covers the nose and mouth area.  Now when I open my mouth, I won't be the dragon lady!!  

My new mask is for women.  It is pink!!  
Here is a photo of the mask I got today.  No, it is not pretty and it is not attractive to wear it, it isn't sexy or appealing in any way, but if I don't wear it when I sleep, I cannot breath. My brain doesn't tell me to breath and I wake up 100 times an hour. Yes, an hour.  I literally stop breathing.  I could DIE. I probably will never date again LOL  

There is continuous air being forced through the mask and into your lungs to keep you breathing and alive.  At first it is like trying to breath in a hurricane.  You get used to it and then you can sleep.  Once you are asleep, you don't even wake up.  I now am able to go into REM sleep (something I haven't done in a long time) and I am able to dream again (people dream while in REM sleep). I have had some really trippy dreams this past week.  From nightmares about my kids dying, to getting married to an old boyfriend. They have been super vivid and realistic. 

I have been so long (years) without true sleep that I forgot how good sleep can make you feel.  I can already tell that my neck and back don't hurt as much as they previously did.  I am still in some pain but, not in horrible pain.  I could just be in some weird honeymoon phase of treatment where I get temporary relief from symptoms in the beginning and then the pain comes back later. I sure hope that isn't the case here.  Being in constant chronic pain and having constant debilitating fatigue really diminishes a persons quality of life. I have been literally spending Monday - Wednesday in bed just laying there.  Going to work required bottles of 5 hour energy drinks, caffeine pills, and coffee just to function.  I hope those days are over!

Sleep apnea is actually more common than you would think.  A lot of people have it and have no idea that they have it. 

Approximately one in every five adults has sleep apnea!! 

There are three types of sleep apnea:

1. Obstructive sleep apnea (OSA)
  • The most common type of sleep apnea; occurs when your upper airway closes but your efforts to breathe continue
  • Upper airway obstruction caused usually by lack of muscle tone during sleep, extra upper airway tissue and/or anatomical abnormalities in the upper airway and jaw

2. Central sleep apnea (CSA)
  • Occurs when your breathing stops but your airway is open
  • Results from the body's failure to breathe automatically. It's as if a short circuit prevents the brain from keeping the respiratory system functioning properly
3. Mixed apnea
  • A mixture of both OSA and CSA

Here are the symptoms that are easiest to identify without diagnostic testing:
  • Excessive sleepiness (use the Epworth Sleepiness Scale to evaluate your sleepiness)
  • Snoring (people with OSA usually snore but not always)
  • Witnessed apneas or irregular breathing during sleep (gasping, long pauses, etc – a spouse or partner may notice these)
  • Impaired concentration
  • Impaired memory
  • Morning headaches
  • Sexual dysfunction

High blood pressure (hypertension) and decreased blood oxygen levels are common symptoms for people with sleep apnea, but these are not easily detected. 

If you think you might have sleep apnea, I urge you to seek help!  It could literally mean the difference between life and death. 

For more information about sleep apnea please visit the Mayo Clinic website

Peacock Tattoo

I must be crazy to even think about this, but I was thinking when I lose more weight I might have to get this on my right upper arm. I want to put tropical flowers around it and grasses and butterflies. I guess it will end up being kind of a half sleeve but not the type that wraps around to the under side of the arm.  I think this is so pretty.  Leave me some comments with other ideas if you have them!

Friday, September 7, 2012

Little of this, little of that

Well, we made it to September!  Cooler temperatures are on the horizon!  I don't know about you, but I am sick of 105 degree temps burning up my house, car and everywhere else.  I can never get cool and it makes my body feel miserable.   I heard tomorrow might be 85!  I may have to break out the sweats and a coat! That is chilly compared to 105!


I am about a month and a half out from lap band surgery. Unfortunately,  I haven't lost anymore weight.  I am stuck at the 15 pound mark.  I have lost some inches from my middle and thighs and arms, though.  The band just isn't tight enough, yet.  I have 2cc inside the band right now, but I will probably need several more fills to get the full benefit.  I cannot eat as much as I used to, but I can eat more than what the doctor wants me to be eating.  I try very hard to eat healthy foods, though.  I don't want to gain weight! I still make green smoothies with my Nutribullet.  I drink one or two a day.  They are delicious!   I go back to my doctor September 24.  


Ugh, all this political back and forth is almost enough to make me scream!  I hate election time.  It turns all of my friends into wild beasts!  Everyone has their own opinion, which is a very good thing, but when opinions turn into belittling others, cussing others and general asshole-ness... (yes, asshole-ness....I am declaring it a word!) then I get tired of it really fast!! 

I have decided that the candidate/party that  even comes close to how I think and believe is The Green Party's, Jill Stein.  Plus, Jill Stein is a woman!  Isn't it time we had a woman president?  It is sad to me that people don't really know who she is. 

Everyone is so wrapped up in the race between the republicans and the democrats.  I wish other parties got as much attention.  If I had to pick one or the other, I would have to go with the democrats for sure.  I am and never will be a conservative.  


I am craving more ink... I know, I know...no big surprise there.  I am addicted to the tattoo machine!!  I admit it.  I crave that pain.  It is kind of like child birth.  Lots of pain, but you get something beautiful in the end.  I need to save up my money so I can get magnolias in honor of my Nana.  I am really excited about this piece.  


My fibro is acting up this week.  I am in some serious pain.  My neck hurts and my lower back/pelvis hurts.  I am really tired all the time and moving around makes my muscles feel very fatigued and sore.  I have been waking up with headaches the past three mornings.  I should have known that it was a sign of the pain that was to come.  I came to work this morning, but it is all I can do to not cry from the pain and discomfort and burning sensations in my muscles.  I feel heavy and worn down.  I think if I went home right now, I would sleep for days.  This illness sucks so bad.  I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I feel like shit 70% of the time anyways, but then I get a flare up and feel like I've  been run over by a train and dragged 10 miles.  ...and the worst part?  NO ONE "gets it" unless they have this illness.  Think about a time when you had the flu... that overwhelming tired feeling and the achy muscles.  You just felt BAD.  That is how I feel most of the time... It affects my whole life.  No one understands why I can't just get over it.  Some doctors don't even believe it's real.   People with fibro are NOT faking it... I can assure you.  Who would want to live this way?? I'd give anything to feel better. ANYTHING. 

Friday, August 24, 2012

Green Smoothies

What's green, tastes great and is so good for you?  Green smoothies! Green smoothies are quickly sweeping the nation as the best health drink that anyone can make at home.  I personally have been making and drinking green smoothies for the last year.  I started out with a regular blender and it was pretty good at blending up the ingredients but it left some pieces that I would have to chew up.  I dealt with that because I love green smoothies and the positives outweighed the negatives.  I finally bought myself a new blender specifically made for blending up greens and fruits and nuts called The Nutribullet.  It is by far the best blender I have ever owned.  It is able to blend greens,fruits and nuts into a smooth silkiness that would rival even the Vitamix (another blender brand). 

Let's take a look at how green smoothies are so easy to make and incorporate into your life: Borrowed from the Raw Foods Witch website 

1. All you need is a blender and an open mind.

The great thing about green smoothies is that it doesn’t require much to get started. (You could invest in a Vitamix for silky-smooth shakes, but that’s totally optional.) My biggest suggestion is to give green smoothies a try before you get a better blender. That way you’ll be convinced of their effectiveness.

2. Green Smoothies are quick to make.

If you’re in a rush you can get a green smoothie ready and blended in less than 13 minutes. You can just blend and go while you drink the green smoothie on the run. You could even make a green smoothie ahead of time. Then store half of it in the refrigerator using a glass mason jar and it will still taste great one day later.

3. You get a steady stream of energy. (No crashing!)

You won’t experience the up-and-down spikes that you might from an all fruit smoothie when you make it a green one. That’s because the fiber rich greens slow down the absorption of fruit sugars, providing you with just the right amount of energy and nutrition at a pace that your body really loves.

4. Green smoothies can be enjoyed year round.

When your garden is overflowing with greens, just whip up a couple of batches of green smoothies and enjoy these inexpensive nutritional drinks. You can also benefit from green smoothies in the winter, by using frozen fruits and greens that you might have preserved from the summer. Green smoothies provide you with a lot of options all year round.

5. Green smoothies are ideal for weight loss.

Whenever you feel a craving coming on, make yourself a green smoothie instead of indulging your craving.  Green smoothies help cut cravings because they are satisfying and provide your body with tons of nutrition.

6. Greens are the most Under-appreciated Superfoods.

We all know green tea is great as an antioxidant. What is green tea made of, if it’s not greens? Skip the middleman and just increase your intake of greens. Green leafy veggies are great because they have tons of cancer fighting properties, immune system boosting vitamins and minerals. Upping green leaf intake has been shown to reduce heart disease and prevent other degenerative diseases. That’s what I call super. 

7. Satisfy every taste bud.

If you have a sweet tooth you’ll enjoy making green smoothies with lots of fruit. If you want something a little edgier, you can add some Raw Chocolate powder and make it a nutritiously devious dessert. If you want to replace a meal, you can make savory green smoothies using ingredients like tomatoes, cucumbers, celery, and even spices to make it a satisfying hearty meal.
Green Witch's Goop

The Basic Green Smoothie Recipe

Feel free to use this basic green smoothie base and experiment. 
  • 1 Banana
  • 1 Peach
  • 5 Strawberries
  • Handful Spinach (increase greens gradually over time, and you’ll find you crave more of them!)
  • 1 cup water
Taken from the Living in the Real World website, we can see how wonderful green smoothies are for people of all ages:   

- Green smoothies promote weight loss. Naturally if you exclusively eat one thing for a few days, you’re probably going to lose weight simply because it’s difficult to over-eat on one type of food – you get tired/bored of it. But green smoothies are particularly good for weight loss because the high water content and the potentially high fibre content fill you up. They provide a lot of sustenance, and depending on the ingredients you use they can also be a very low-calorie snack/meal. I’ve had trials of green smoothie “fasts” several times now, and each time I notice a weight loss of a couple pounds within just a few days. The weight will stay off as long as you eat normally in the days that follow. If you overeat, you’ll regain the weight. If you eat proper-sized portions of foods, that weight will stay off.

- Green smoothies help the body stay hydrated. Hydration is so important for keeping our energy levels up, for good brain and muscular functions, to help the immune system, and to help get rid of any toxins and waste in the body. Unfortunately, most people don’t drink nearly enough water. If your urine isn’t an extremely pale yellow or nearly clear colour, you likely aren’t drinking enough water. If you’re thirsty, that’s the body’s way of telling you that you’re already showing the first signs of dehydration. The reasons for not drinking enough water are numerous, including that people don’t like the taste of water, they don’t have time to drink water regularly throughout the day, they forget to drink water or that they consume too many other things which are dehydrating. Green smoothies can help with that! Generally if I use one cup of water in a smoothie and add some fruit and leafy greens, once blended the volume increases to about 1.5 or 2 cups of liquid. Drink green smoothies to stay hydrated and you’ll find that you feel a million times better.

- Green smoothies promote good digestion. They help to break down the food so that our bodies can access nutrients. Some scientific research points to the reality that many people have poor pH levels in their stomachs. This means that, due to evolution, dietary patterns or changing health in general, our bodies may not be as efficient and adept at breaking down food to acquire nutrients as they once were. Plants are made of extraordinarily strong materials and if we cannot properly break down the greens in our digestive system, we will not be extracting all of the precious nutrients. That’s where the blender comes in. By drinking our leafy greens, the cells have already been broken down so that the nutrients will be more accessible. Awesome! This also means that if you find it difficult to eat greens because they make you bloat or cause indigestion, the green smoothies will be much kinder on your system and you will be able to consume leafy greens without any uncomfortable side effects.

- Green smoothies provide a ton of nutrients. As a general rule, we don’t get enough leafy greens in our diets. Some health professionals even suggest that leafy should be an entire category on their own, separate from the fruit/vegetable food group, because of the bountiful nutrients that they provide. Victoria Boutenko provides detailed analysis of the nutritional profile of greens, offering an impressive amount of evidence that leafy greens “are the primary food group that matches human nutritional needs most completely” (Boutenko, 35). And yes, leafy greens provide a lot of protein as well. If you continue to rotate the types of leafy greens that you use in your smoothies, you will be getting all of the essential amino acids into your diet. They’re the single most important food to include in our diet, and yet they are incredibly under-used in the Standard American Diet.

- Green smoothies are an appealing way to eat greens. Okay, so this isn’t so much a “health” benefit, but it’s still a beneficial way for people to consume their greens! We should be consuming a pound or two of leafy greens every day to reap amazing nutritional benefits, and green smoothies can help us to meet that goal. Many people dislike salads or find it just plain challenging to eat large quantities of salad or other forms of greens. Smoothies, however, can be mixed with fruit, cocoa powder or flavoured protein powder and the like to turn it into a sweet treat. In this way you could have a smoothie for breakfast, a smoothie as a pre- or post-workout snack and a smoothie for dessert in the evening. Three smoothies right there! You can add any kind of leafy green, or different kinds of powdered sea greens and herbs for a good variety.


Some of my favorite green smoothie recipes are so simple, anyone can do it!
Just follow these basic 4 steps:

  • Fill blender with 50% leafy greens (kale, spinach, romaine, Swiss chard, collard greens, ect...)plus 50% fruits (apples, pears, berries, oranges, plums, strawberries  blueberries, ect...)

  • Pour water or almond milk or coconut milk to the top of mixture

  • Add a teaspoon of nuts/seeds if you desire (sunflower seeds, chopped almonds, cashews, ect...)

  • Blend until smooth! ENJOY!!! 

National Registry EMT Exam

On Monday, I got up early and went to the Pearson-Vue Center in downtown Texarkana to take my EMT National Registry exam.  I had to sign in and show 2 forms of I.D, do a finger print and do a palm vein scan!  They are serious about security there!!  I also had to pull out my pockets in my jeans to prove I didn't have anything with me and I had to swear that I wasn't taking anything inside the testing center that wasn't allowed.  They must be worried about cheating.  I do not blame them!  I can see some people trying to sneak in notes and calculators.  Those medical exams are tough.  

I finally got seated at computer number 1 and the examiner turned on my exam.  I read through the directions and hit BEGIN.  Question after question I felt like I was answering wrong.  I started to feel sick and beads of sweat were popping out on my forehead.  I stared to make horrible mistakes that I knew were wrong, but my clicky finger hits NEXT before I am ready.  I thought I was about to pass out.  I had to concentrate on breathing normal or I might have hyperventilated.    One question for sure I know I answered wrong... I gave nitro to a man with a pressure of 88.  I don't even know why I did that.  I know better.  I'm blaming it on my trigger happy clicky finger getting overly excited.  Right then... The test shut off.  OMG!  The test shut off!  I was only on question 50 something... OMG! I sat there in shock for what seemed like eons when finally the examiner came and got me.  She said "Wow, that was quick!" 
I knew I had failed the exam.  I should have studied harder, more, or with someone.  I went out to my truck and thought I was going to throw up.  I am not sure how I even made it home.  I was in a depression fog.  I was so upset.  At home I fell into my bed and just stared into space.  

National Registry posts the results on their website within 1-2 days.  My paramedic friends said I would probably have mine within 6-8 hours.  I pulled up the site and signed in.  I turned on the TV and started watching a movie.  I think I watched a Tyler Perry movie:  Why Did I Get Married?  I got up from time to time to refresh the website  checking my results.  Time after time there was nothing there.  Nothing to tell me if I failed or passed.  I was about to have an anxiety attack!!  

I finally clicked refresh AGAIN and there it was... a new screen!  Did my eyes see what I think they saw?  The words "Congratulations Wendy!  You are now a Nationally Registered EMT!"   HOLY SMOKES!!!!  How?  I thought I was failing miserably the entire time, but really I was doing quite well!  I passed that exam within 50 questions!  I think there are 150 questions.  If you are doing really well it shuts off and passes you, but if you are not doing so well it keeps questioning you until you pass or fail.  But, it also does that if you are failing badly at 50 questions, it will just fail you.  THAT is what I thought happened to me!!!  

So, I passed!  No one was home for me to share my good news with.  I had to text people and post it to my Twitter and Facebook pages!  I was so happy!!

Yesterday, my NREMT patch and certificate came in the mail.  I am official!!  

I applied last Friday at Lifenet ambulance services for a part time EMT position.  I will keep you all updated on that!  I hope they call me.  

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Night Out

Friday night, Julie and I and some other girls went out to Fat Jacks Bar and Shooters Bar. 
I took the time to do my hair extra curly (it is natural, but I have to dry it very slowly for it to look nice) and do my make up just right, especially my eyes.  I washed and dried my favorite jeans (almost too big for me now!!) and wore my best black shirt.  I thought I was looking pretty cute!  Julie picked me up at 8:30pm and we headed to Jacks. 

 As soon as we got a table I saw this guy that I had gone out with years and years ago walk into the bar.  Let me just say, I cannot stand him.  He is so obnoxious I just want to slap the shit out of him every time he opens his mouth.  Lucky me...he ended up knowing all of my friends that I was there with.  What did I do to piss off the universe this time? He sat with us the entire time we were there!  I had to suffer through his loud mouth and him trying to touch everyone.  We finally left and went to Shooters Bar and I really thought he would come out there, but he never did. Thank goodness!  

Shooters was DEAD.  I guess people don't go out on a Friday night anymore.  It was not packed at all.  There was, however, a very strange man there.  He was randomly dancing with every woman.  Just going up to her and dancing beside her or behind her.  If you have ever seen the Ellen Show, she had a contest called Dance Dare.  Please, if you haven't seen it...watch this video!!! Ellen Dance Dare Winner
Funniest thing EVER!!  Here are a few more must see  videos:  Video 1 Video 2 Video 3

So, back to the random dancing guy...  Girls were not impressed by him or his moves.  He finally came over to my friends and I and tried to dance around and behind us.  I pressed my body against the bar so he couldn't get behind me.  He told us that his daddy was the richest man in America and that he was the richest guy to even set foot in that bar.  He told us his name, which sounded very rich indeed... something like Preston Wallace Thorn-dyke Wales the 3rd or something equally rich and famous sounding.  He even had an odd rich kid look to him.  He was clearly an escaped psych patient that decided to stop there and dance...randomly...with every girl there.  To make things even funnier, this really tiny old lady (in her 70's at least) came in and started doing the same thing this man was doing.  They never spoke to each other as far as I could tell, but she randomly danced with everyone, men and women.  I finally said "Is this randomly dance around people you don't know day?"
Security finally made him tab out and leave. What a weird guy.  He was obviously mentally ill.  The whole thing reminded me of Ellen's Dance Dare contest.  Please watch the videos!

After we left Shooters we went to IHop.  Julie and I shared a meal.  We are lap band sisters, ya know? We had eggs, sausage, bacon and hash browns.  It was so good!  It came with red velvet pancakes, but we can't eat bread products like that.  It might gum up and stick in the band.  I boxed up the pancakes and took them home to my children. We had an awesome waiter named Michael.  He was a pretty funny guy.  He kept making fun of us because we wanted him to hurry and get our food even though we had just gotten there.  We were so sleepy though, we just wanted to hurry and go home to our beds!

We made a side trip at 2am to the ER (Julie and I  work at the ER) to pick up some sheets that Julie had left in the monitor room... I had to run in there and get them for her because she thought she smelled to much like smoke.  We had acquired this horrible smoky bar odor...  it was nasty.  I hate that smell.  I used to be a smoker, but I quit about 3 years ago.  Now, I hate the smell of cigarettes.  

After I got home, I put my smoky clothing in the washer and closed the lid.  I sprayed body spray all over myself in an attempt to kill the stench.  I finally got into bed around 2:30am.  

What a night!! 
Looking fwd to doing it again soon!! 


Friday, August 17, 2012

Gonna Drop It Like It's Hot Tonight!

...OK maybe more like luke warm...but it's going to be a blast either way!

My friend Julie and I and a few others are going out tonight!  I am so excited!  Thinking Fat Jacks first, then Shooters (Texarkana, Arkansas).  A few non carbonated drinks for me because I deserve them, but not too many!!  Empty calories, they are!!  It is possible there could be dancing!  Watch out Texarkana, Wendy is going out on the town!!

Will post an update tomorrow with possible photos!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

8-15-12 Pictures

Guess what?  I forgot that I will be at work Saturday and so will my son (he takes the photos).  So today is picture day!!  

These are my ONE MONTH after lap band photos!!

August 15, 2012

August 15, 2012

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Almost One Month Post Op

I am 3 days shy of being one month out from lap band surgery placement.  I started all normal foods today.  I had a slice of pizza for dinner.  It was small, but I feel like I ate 5 slices!  In 3 days I will be taking my 1 month photos.  I know I took the before photos on July 5th, but the surgery was on July 17th.  People have told me that I look smaller, so I am excited to see the new photos and judge for myself side by side with the before photos.  It is hard to tell since I see myself daily and don't really notice change yet.  So, be on the lookout Saturday for 1 month photos.  

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Oh and I weighed today!  2 more pounds gone FOREVER!!!

Friday, August 10, 2012

Post Op Appt * EMT Test

I had my first post op check up yesterday (8/9/12) and everything is right on track.  I have healed up nicely and I am pain free now.  I go back in 2 weeks for my first fill! I am very excited about that even though they will be sticking a 5 inch needle through my abdominal wall and into the port.  Owww!  It will be worth it though!

When I got to the doctors office the first thing I noticed was how hot it was in there.  I saw people fanning themselves and sweating.  My mom went up to the desk and asked why it was so hot and they told her that in the middle of the night someone or a group of someones climbed over an iron fence and through barbed wire to get to the buildings air conditioners to steal the copper wiring from them!  It just makes me so mad that people like this are even on the planet.  I want to scream, "GET A FUCKING JOB like the rest of us!". 

I had to sit through a nutrition class (in the blazing heat).  I can now start to transition to regular foods as tolerated.  I am not supposed to drink anything 30 min before I eat, while I eat or 30 min after I eat.  That is SO HARD!!!! If anyone has any tips please share with me!

  Because of the heat, it was the most miserable doctor appointment I have ever had.  I know the poor staff  were miserable, too.  They did not even have fans in the back.  They had one fan out front, but it was doing very little to cool that huge waiting room off. 

Starting weight (first day of liquid diet) 7/05/12 :  257 pounds
Weight on surgery day 7/17/12 :  253 pounds
Weight as of 8/09/12 :  245 pounds
Total loss as of 8/09/12 :  12 pounds


August 20, 2012 I will be taking the National Registry of Emergency Medical Technology test.  I guess I should start studying to refresh myself!
Wish me luck!!