Wendy UnBrOkEn

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Tuesday, December 25, 2012

New photos to show weight loss. 12-23-2012

Julie Smith and I at Shooters (a local bar)

Me before going to Shooters
Every time I lose weight, my cheek bones stick out like they are in the photo.  I think it looks odd.  

Full body shot.  I am down to 229 pounds now!  At surgery in July 2012 I was 253.  

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Life is good!!

It's finally December 1st!  I love winter!  I love the cold crisp air, the cold nights and the smell of fireplaces burning aged logs.  I love sweaters and jackets and jeans.  But, my favorite thing is cuddling up under a blanket.  I am addicted to blankets and collect them.  I don't collect them on purpose, really, I just seem to acquire a lot of them. I always feel my best in winter.  Winter in Texas is too short and the summers too long.  I need to be up north somewhere!

I am still not losing weight.  I don't know what the deal is.  I eat, but not very much.  That is probably why I stay the same.  My body probably feels like I am starving.  I just cannot eat very much and I am never hungry.  What I do manage to eat is always a very small portion and I usually get "stuck".  If I get stuck I have to throw it back up.  Getting stuck is the most painful feeling.  I've never had a heart attack, but I can imagine it is a pain somewhat like that.  Deep chest pain, radiates to my jaw and arms and middle back.  Nothing helps except to throw up.  So, my body is probably holding onto the fat, just in case.  I am sure that at some point I will lose weight...even anorexics lose weight and they don't eat anything. I am losing inches, though.  My jeans are bigger.  I don't understand how that works.  No matter how many times I research it, it makes no sense to me to get smaller, yet weigh the same.  I am  not really working out, either.  So, someone explain this to me!

Work in the ER has been very good.  I sure do enjoy my job here and my co workers!  I couldn't ask for better people to spend my weekends with.  I have to work on Christmas, though.  That kind of sucks, but that is just the type of job I have.  The sick and injured don't stop being sick and injured just because it's a holiday.  My work family will probably throw together a pot luck lunch and we will celebrate the day together.  

Hope everyone has a great December!